In a Blink...

During our amazing Disney vacation i encountered a surreal moment.

I was walking toward our room on Friday night after an amazing day at the Disney parks. I had Josiah on the hip, Aubrey holding my hand, and Caleb leading the way-I looked back at Jimmy and smiled... My heart was overwhelmed by my life...

12 + years ago-- i could not have even Imagined or Dreamed this wonderful life!!! I was so desperate for one child, that i could not even dream beyond that! The desperate prayers, the over the top research on infertility, and the monthly agony of defeat took its toll on my ability to dream. That time, which seemed like a forever desert, was erased instantly by two little lines showing up on a stick!! :)

Words seem too small to put to the emotion of how i love my life!! That moment will be forever etched on my heart and mind, as a constant reminder of how My God is a Dream builder. Maybe not on my time schedule but definitely on His. I could NOT have dreamed a better life for myself in any alternate universe!!

Caleb- my world changer-- my genius, superstar, athlete, with the sensitivity needed to be guided by the Spirit... Such a handsome boy! So unaware of his abilities and future ahead!! -- my first miracle!

Aubrey- my Mother of Nations-- her love and ability to impact peoples heart is phenomenal. Her affection for arts, dance, (dancing sarah) babies, and people are so apparent in her! Spend 5 minutes with her and you will be in love and in the presence of a Gem!! My little gem!!

Josiah- my Fearless Boy Wonder--my little leader and warrior! His love for music.. and i mean all things music not just guitar apparently..is Amazing!! He will stop anything he is doing to listen or see music!! My favorite phrase, "Keeko Mommy"!! He has stolen my heart!! You can see in him a love for life, and all things boy!

Jim-- my love, my bestie, my heart-- This man is in all respects amazing!! I challenge you to name something he can not do {besides give birth :) } He is an amazing teacher, father, husband and provider!! He has introduced me to things i could never have imagined doing, nevertheless loving-- Offshore fishing, skiing, having our own garden, and "farm". He has taken this city girl to new ideas!!!

All this to humbly say: I am beyond Blessed!! A woman able to Dream and live out those dreams!!

Bringing Baby Bouton Home: We're in the Taiwan program!!!

Bringing Baby Bouton Home: We're in the Taiwan program!!!: "So we submitted our application to the agency 'All God's Children International' on Friday night to see if we would be accepted into their ..."

Prayer for a Family.. reminder for me!!

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Hey all…I know it’s been awhile since the last time I wrote. We have been waiting to find out what our next part of our journey is; whether it is with CHOP or Sloan. Okay, before I get into that, I will fill you all in what has been going on over the last 2 weeks.

So we finished out our time in Florida. Trey had a great time! It was nice to see him on the beach, playing in the sand and water, smile at the Disney characters, enjoy the rides and just relax. Eating was a problem and a major stressful time. We found out that he lost 2.5lbs while we were away (which is a lot for Trey.) We got back last Sunday afternoon and had a great visit from family friends and had a wonderful time at a friend’s house for Memorial Day.

Last Tuesday Trey had his port surgery at CHOP and at that time we believed that we were starting chemo at Sloan today, June 6, 2011. The original plan was to stay at CHOP and start chemo there. Well, basically it was a cluster you know what. We hadn’t yet been approved by our insurance company to go to Sloan, so after the operation, we went home. Trey was in pain that night. We also had decided to put the NG (feeding tube) back in because of the amount of effort it takes to get Trey to eat/gain weight. We started the feedings on Wednesday and yup, you guessed right…up came the tube and Mike and I had to drop it again…which in my opinion is the worst thing ever. Trey screams the whole time and fights us all the way. We really need 3 people now to hold him down, but we manage.

Last week was just plain crappy. We really did nothing but lie around and watch T.V. We made the living room into the “living room” complete with an areobed and all. It should have felt great considering we really haven’t sat in our house since March 20th. I didn’t touch my phone or computer for a whole almost week…wow:) Honestly, I sat around shaking. I haven’t really had a spare minute alone with my thoughts since March 20th, even in Florida, and it really wasn’t a good idea. Mostly I sat there looking at my baby wondering if this was really happening. I just can’t believe that this is happening. On March 19th we went to bed with a semi normal 4 year old that could walk, talk and at 5 am on March 20th, we were awakened with a little boy who had just had a stroke. That day I watched my little boy, surrounded by 20 docs and nurses, almost die in the very same room as me. His blood pressure dropped to 38/14 and the nurse asked me if I was ok with being in the same room. Calmly I told her I was fine and surprisingly my eyes were dry. I looked at the chopper pilot like he was crazy when he asked me if I was nervous about being airlifted to CHOP. Nervous about a helicopter ride?? Really, the entire ride I prayed into the sunrise that God would take us both now. At least if we went down, Trey wouldn’t know what was happening and honestly the thought of dying at that moment was a relief. I really don’t think that I would have been afraid. There is nothing more that scares me than the thought of losing my son. Then when we were at CHOP, we were sat down in a tiny room and told that our son had no chance of surviving this. No parent should ever have to hear those words. That day was enough to send me to the loony bin and the only reason I am not there is because of Trey. The last week was hard because every time I put Trey to bed, I kept thinking what if?

Anyways, so the entire plan is crazy and different from what we had originally thought. Our insurance company has denied us treatment at Sloan. We start the next round of chemo at CHOP this Wednesday the 8th to Sunday the 12th. We have to wait 2 to 3 weeks before the 8H9 treatment anyways, so hopefully the docs will be able to convince the insurance company that Sloan is necessary. We just found all of this out today. My nerves are shot. Last week it was back and forth between the insurance company and Sloan. Ugggg.

Saturday we finally got “up” and went to a fair, to dinner and to see Kung Foo Panda 2. It was a fun day and Trey had a great time practicing his Tae Kwon Do skills throughout the movie:) Today he decided he wanted to roller-skate and ride his bike, so that is what we did. The kid never ceases to amaze me. Tomorrow we are going to the Phillies’ game…woohoooo:) Thanks to our very special Phillies’ lady. We love you and are so grateful for what you have always done for us:) We are EXTREMELY excited, not just because it’s a Phillies’ game (we always are excited for our Phils) but because we are getting the Halladay (as in Roy) Box with other dear onco families and friends. Wooohooo!! Sounds like a great night to me! Thanks again special friend!!

So that’s it for now. Please pray for the insurance to allow us to go to Sloan. I mean, I don’t really care what they have to say….if we have to pay for it all out of pocket, then they can bill us. I feel very strongly about Trey getting this treatment. Also please pray for our neighbor. His name is Thomas; he is 12 and was hit by a car while we were in Fla. He had brain surgery and his entire left side was shattered. He will be in CHOP for 3 to 6 months.

Make sure you remember to kiss your loved ones before bed. You never know what tomorrow will bring. Learn to forgive and forget. That doesn’t mean you have to like everyone, but you will feel better once you do. People are people. James 1:19-2119 Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: You must all be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. 20 Human anger[a] does not produce the righteousness[b] God desires. 21 So get rid of all the filth and evil in your lives, and humbly accept the word God has planted in your hearts, for it has the power to save your souls.

Be quick to listen and slow to anger…..wow, if you know me, you know that is a hard thing for me to do. But it is something my mentor, a very wise and kind man, has been teaching me for the last 3 years. It has helped me a lot with living a better life in general. I will always be me and I will always say what is on my mind, but I have learned to listen, forgive and accept that some people just cannot change.
Sorry that this update is all over the place….my mind is running fast.
Faith, Hope and Love-Missy

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another AMAZING spring break

I don't know if it is just me.. but i LOVE having my kids home from school~~ It makes me think that i would enjoy homeschooling.. but there are days :) where i just don't know!!We spent yesterday at Disney with Jules, thanks to my amazing friend Joyce-who is always so willing to sign us in~ anywhoooo It was an amazing and beautiful day!!! Perfect weather, perfect evening.. We started at Epcot and went to the countries, played some Kim Possible, watched some performances, rode Spaceship Earth, and then off to Magic Kingdom. Josiah was with us but most of the time on my back, which is difficult to get a picture of to say the least!!! We rode Pirates, went on the Big White Boat :) and Calebs favorite-- Laugh factory!! It was pretty funny i have to say.. We left around 9~~ Josiah and Aubs were OUT before we left the property!! And even my eldest fell asleep on the way home.. They sure are heavy when they are asleep these days!!!

Today we decided to stay home, "We" being all relative..it was 1 against 2 on going somewhere though! :) They would go go go go all the time if they could!! :) So we played on the back porch

with whatever we could find..bubbles, a tin, and water~~ nothing finer for my kids!! :) We even got Nana to come outside for a small period of time~~ had to put the tent up though.. She is not so loving the sun these days :) Daddy is home with us tomorrow so we are hoping to do the beach.. he came home today and surprised the kiddos with our first female goat! OIY.. but they are so excited.. she is quite shy and not ready to be pals yet!! They will not stop until she is though!! hahaaah

I have a page I follow for updates http://www.carepages.com/carepages/TheChemoKid/updates/2971025 and their last posting

has touched me deeply!! We really do take time for granted and me being the planner i am~~plans for months that i wish i thanked God more often for!! Please feel free to join me in prayer for Trey and his family as they fight this disease!!! and be thankful to our Amazing

Father that we are here, healthy, and able!!! Have an amazing Wednesday evening.. off for family time~~ (dinner) :) :)

Awe in just plain awe!!!

I am hit~~ at random times~~ of the love i have for my children!! They are growing up so quickly! I am honored to not just be a mom.. but the mom of Caleb, Aubrey, and Josiah!! What a life.. What a day!!!

WHY oh WHY...

Why O WHY must children grow up so quickly...

I doubt i am the only mama who thinks this but GOODNESS!! Where does the time go and how do i bottle it?? :)
I love these three babies!!

Caleb-- "Numbers 14:24 But because my servant

Caleb has a different spirit and follows me wholeheartedly, I will bring him into the land he went to, and his descendants will inherit it. Naming my first child was one of the hardest things for me during my pregnancy!

When i read the verse above I cried for like an hour~~ Jim looked over and said-- Maybe we should name him Caleb?! :) ;) But he resembles this verse so very much to me! He reminds me of a Young Tim Tebow... Why?? I don't know... maybe that different spirit?? :) :) My young manchild! Shot his first deer

this past week and is excited about mounting it on the wall.. ACK!!! :) The life of a Sellers boy is full of ... surprises!! :)

My One and Only Girl Aubs

Colossians 3:14
And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

She is sooo full of love~~ for family, babies, small children, dance, art, and giving. She is so fun to spend time with and loves with all she has! I love that she does not understand the "Cattiness" of girls~~ and i pray she never does! :) I took her with me to a pilates class last night and she stayed right there with me trying everything! :) This morning she told me her stomach was soooo sore!! :) She will try anything~~ as long as she is not alone ;) I could go on and on about her amazingness.. but you'll just have to check back later!! :)

Our Wee little Josiah~~ and yes i say WE.. as well.. he is a unique part of the family that everyone thinks he is theirs :)

2 Kings 23:25

Neither before nor after Josiah was there a king like him who turned to the LORD as he did—with all his heart and with all his soul and with all his strength, in accordance with all the Law of Moses.

Ok so he is not a king (yet) He definitely lives life to the full and I know he is created for such great purpose.. He is sooo fun to play with.. If you ever just "drop" by.. the house may not have been cleaned yet because he always stands beside me while i am cleaning the kitchen and just looks up.. like Seriously Mom.. i am right here.. ;) :) and not moving til you play!! :) I love it!!!
I am blessed beyond measure by the little measurements of life God has blessed me with!! I can't wait for this new year and all the fun things we will do together

I am so grateful to be able to stay home and raise these little guys... YES there are days i want to join the work world.. but as Pastor Crystal always reminds me--I really don't want anyone else doing this job of mine! :)

PS-- I have a great husband too who works hard for me to do the stay at home thing :) just ... no pics of him on this picture day :)